I could not wait to change my name! There was a point where I was going to change my first and last name! Haha I’ll spare you the name. Throughout my life women have either been really kind or really shitty. My 30’s were blissful I don’t know what it was but I came across no drama. Now in my 40’s I have encountered the mean and the ugly again. Do they have a little bit more time on their hands, are they not aging as gracefully, does your marriage suck, or do you just suck? I was so afraid of my playboy past being found out, because I have kids, and my husband was working on TV again. The truth of the matter was my friends that truly are my friends, (and they come from all walks of life) don’t dig up a now 20 year old grave. But psychopaths do 🤪. And I have met a few. I have done a lot of things in my life that were amazing it wasn’t just Playboy! I have asked myself would I do it all again? The answer is......yes! This is how I have no regrets in my life. I understand that at that time in my life that was the best decision I could have made. I’m not embarrassed to say that I got into an abusive relationship that seemed to happen over night. I lost everything my mental health, my freedom, my friends, my money, the things I worked so hard for. I could have even been looking at jail time. Hef and Playboy saved my life, I had instant money, fame, and friends. I was pulled out of a hole dusted off and protected by what others might judge as another unhealthy situation, but it wasn’t. I’m thankful for it. I have come to terms with if it wasn’t for my faith, family, friends, Hef, and playboy I might have not made it. I have embraced Jennifer Walcott, although I don’t like the 80’s hair they gave me , and was asked to gain weight that went straight to my face🙄 I embrace it! It was a young girl who was Miss America that helped me with my blog, that said, “ You need to accept Walcott/Archuleta”. Wiser then me at such a young age! My oldest son gets the path I chose and one day will grasp how important that turn was in my life and how I had to take it. I also realized I need to quit being insecure. To tell myself when I meet new people that they won’t judge or find skeletons in my closet.... it’s the haters who are miserable in there own life that will find a past and talk about it 🤔and that’s ok! I was not a porn star I was 1 of 12 girls a year that posed in a magazine, a centerfold. Same magazine Marylyn Monroe , Cindy Crawford and Madonna posed for just to name a few. Of course my magazine is not tucked away under some mattress with just a few photos, My issue came out when the .com and internet boom happened for Playboy. But it is what it is! Everyone has their stuff mine is just easier to find. People are crazy, I recently had a group of women spreading rumors about my KG son blatant lies. It was so sad to attack my son and of course they were half truths about my past and a lot of bullshit whispering. Mama bear had to put them in check😱and I did. When I see this group of women it’s laughable it doesn’t make me feel bad or insecure. I actually feel sorry for them... now don’t get me wrong it did get weird because we all frequent the same places. But I can’t be fake so I don’t do the fake smile and wave I just ignore them. I’m a good person ( I was not always nice) at this point beauty is fading and I want to be a role model for my kids. A beautiful heart is what I want people to see. Those that have seen the dark can easily find the light. I’m a firm believer in forgiveness, empathy, and the best is killing them with kindness. Be kind to unkind people because unkind people need it the most!
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